about home and whatnot

I don't feel like going back to the city where I study. Nevertheless, I'm still not 100% sure about where I belong. I know there's plenty of time to figure that out. But it makes me feel uneasy. Like, I'm going back there. And I feel lonely. I just left my family and my boyfriend there. My friends, my boyfriend's family. I felt so well that whole week. Like I knew I had to be there. And I know I shouldn't feed these kinds of thoughts okay, I get that. But it's kind of hard to do that, as I keep getting further and further away from home.
I don't feel comfortable where I'm living and that does affect me quite a lot and I'm trapped because I don't have the means to move out. I depend on my dad and he says I should stay where I am. But he's not in my shoes. I'm not saying the place is absolute torture. But damn why is it so hard for me to feel like I belong there?
Before I started my relationship I didn't feel like I belonged to my home city either. But now I do. Living close to my family was the problem. I love them, but they tend to be problematic. And I value peace more than anything, probably.